thursday:
drove haze's car to school (SUPER WRONG CHOICE) and had to bring the car to her office t jln bukit merah after class. super bad jam plus super heavy traffic. took a cab with true friend from there (the indian cab driver was DAMN funny), dropped her at master woo's place and i went back to da bao my own dinner. i walked pass the minimart. saw the new paper's headlines : 'he died dancing' a 23yr old sub contractor. i almost wanted to laugh at this person. but i looked at the picture, he looked so familiar. i wanted to buy the papers to read that article, but, eventually didnt buy, i forgot why la.

friday:
friday was an ultra long day.
went to school in the morn for 2hrs for marketing tutorial. met norman after that n cooked lunch. he cooked AND washed. HEHE. i think he is 'trying' to treat me abit nicer. den he went to sleep n left me stoning at his place while he slept. then, i received a phone call from 'wEiMiNg'. lol. that's how i stored my ex bf's name in my phonebook last time. so shocked. i picked up and it was his sis. 'hello priscilla, i am winnie, weiming's sis. are u aware that my brother has passed away?' OMG OMG OMG. i was so shocked. i asked what happened to him, she told me something like it's on thurs newspaper. OMG, the pic i found familiar was actually weiming. went to dig out the newspaper at norman's place and read the article, saw his full name in it. quickly took down her address and went to the wake with my cousin, we hanged out together quite often last time. the last time i went to a wake was when i was like 5 or 6? i wasnt very sure of what to do. before i went there, i was still asking norman's mum if i should go in n see him and give how much money and blah blah. when we reached there, the whole atmosphere was really quite sad. his parents could still recognise me. his father told us 'haiya, it's all fated, he just left us like that.' i feel really very sad to see a 23yr old just leave his family like that. his mother came to hold my hand and told me 'i dont know if this is true. i still feel very blur (mi mi hu hu in chinese). am i really standing here or is this a dream?' really heart breaking to hear that. then his sis asked if we want to go in n see him. it's like my first time seeing a dead person la. somemore, he was someone i was very close to. =( i would say he looked very peaceful, looked the same as last time, mayb more handsome, haha, and he was wearing this chain which looked very much like his favourite chain last time. i dont know if it's the same, but it looks like the same one la. then when we were standing beside him, winnie started to tear and told us how he passed away. he was playing DDR at some arcade for like 30mins and when he squat down to take his bag, he fainted and just left like that. then his auntie came to the coffin and kept shouting his name and ask if he could hear her. that scene really made me feel like crying but i forced myself to hold back my tears. i think no one in his family can accept this fact. his current gf was also there and she looked very upset as well.

i know most of u will probably want to laugh at him. will want to joke about this stupid person 'so old already still play DDR'. or 'wahlao, die this way damn funny' but, pls dont la. diff ppl have diff interest. it's really NOT FUNNY when he's someone u know. he's really a nice and sincere person. =)

weiming was my so-called first 'stable' bf. we were tgt for like a year plus. i rmb he treated me very well, but i treated him like shit. really feel very bad. last night really couldnt sleep, kept thinking of his face and what kinda things we did together. although it was damn long ago (like when i was sec2?) but, i was his FIRST stable gf and he was my FIRST stable bf as well. so, it was a little kiddy, but sweet la. haha. i still rmb he bought me a N8250 when i was ONLY SEC 2 with all his hard earned money! haha, i had the best phone among all my friends. hehehe. being a rough ah beng, he didnt know how to treat girls 'sweet' but he made hand-folded flowers for me, knowing that i prefer fake flowers to real one. i rmb going to arcades to play DDR and para para with him (LOL) during the ah lian days. i rmb him quarreling and fighting with other ah bengs who bullied me. haha. i rmb running away from ah nehs with him after eating and not paying for our pratas. i rmb him bringing me to his new flat in punggol which he was so excited about even before it was renovated. i rmb him piggy-backing me along the long path we always walked pass. i rmb taking neoprints with him. LOL. i rmb him 'tom-banging' me on his BICYCLE, lol, all the way frm bendemeer to east coast. haha. i rmb once we got 'knocked down' by a car while i was on his bicycle. luckily the car was moving at a very slow speed. i still got angry at him and flared up at him. while he was more injured than me. i only had some scratches but he hit his head on the car plate and was feeling giddy. i feel very bad. =( really feel very bad towards him about how bad i treated him last time. =(

i know some of u might feel that i'm such a weirdo to think so much. but really huh, my relationship with him was unforgettable, i would say. although i seldom talk about him. maybe he didnt feel so much for me la. i really dont know. but well, now that he's not around anymore, only these little memories stay with me. =) while i was standing beside him ytd, i kept telling him inside my heart how thankful i was towards him for all the sweet things he had done for me when i was so young. and also apologised for all the bad things i did to him. today he will be cremated. i hope that his family will be ok soon and i hope that he will have a good afterlife, if there is one.

human beings are really weird. they only appreciate ppl when they are gone. have i ever really sat down n think through all the nice things he had done for me before i received the phone call from winnie? no. i feel lousy as a person.

so from now on, i urge everyone to rmb the ppl who have treated u nice before, treasure whoever u have with u now, dont take people for granted. u'll never know when they will leave u.



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